If Tommorow Starts Without Me

Some poems just say it all. This was forwarded to me, but rings very true, I posted this on an old draft Thursday May 4, 2006 at 11:11 while listening to my and Sue's song, In the middle (theory of a deadman). If you read this, chances are there's a reason you're looking back several months, I guess this blog was a fantastic idea for this reason if nothing else it's easy to see who I was, how I loved and laughed.

If tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me, As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready, In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for, So much left yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared, And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized, That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth has passed, but here life starts anew."

I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last,
and since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past.

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.

Trying not to make this morbid at all, but I think it would be a hidden gem among a bounty of memories of me.

Remember how I loved
And how I made you smile
Remember me for my caring side
Instilled in me as a child

My time here may be through
But I promise it's not the end
I'm in heaven now
Looking after some dear dear friends

I may not have been the best man
I know I hurt some of you
I always tried to make amends
My words were always true

So now I leave you sad
Tears streaming down your face
But know that I am happy
I'm in a better place

Hard to imagine a better place than here, I had the greatest family and childhood a person could want, I only hope I got to give the same to my own.